Hello first of i gotta apologise for not blogging so long haha seems like every post now also liddat to compensate you guys i found a funny video hope u guys like it.. how you count 100? use your fingers WUAHAHAHAHA .. anyway i had been working this few weeks and a few of my bros had gone in to serve the nation.. salutes.. and yea.. gunna organise a gathering for 408 as irene requested.. but seems like only a few replied.. i feel very sad.. now i know being organiser is not easy at all.. bah anyway gunna set it at suntec this saturday at 7 pm gather and meet around the starbucks there.. then we go makan.. and catch up bah.. anyway recently had been quite distressing for me.. with the gathering at hand and i have another headache.. argh.. anyway i juz hope wad i hoe for to come real bah.. how will i handle it in future? will it last even till the future? will it even start in the first place?
Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head
You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know
You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away i know
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There aint't so much for me anymore
-Micheal Learns To Rock
That's Why (You Go Away)
Maybe Chapter 2 shud be final for the story i was writing.. anyway after hearing the song above basically the first half describes alot of how i am feeling right now.. if it really happens will this song continue in my heart as it will in this song?
Not in much mood to write any stories and its like 5 am in the morning now and i am feeling strange within me after hearing this song.. i had been playing it for the 18th time now.. most of the time if we see things that does not appeal we will not even give it a try.. but if u are willing to try maybe u will find out that its still not bad.. what am i talking now.. the song is making feel so down now.. i feel that i am such a born loser but whenever i think of that i will remember wad my supervisor had said to me .. no one is a born loser as all are born winners because all of us were involved in a race with 5 million competitors.. if we came in even second.. we will not even be here today.. every fingers has it length no one is similar.. i will keep that in mind and work hard in life to succeed.. i will make it rich one day i will i must and i have to cause with that i can give you more then juz my heart and soul.
i wish i could stop typing but it seems impossible as the song is playing the 20th time now.. every word every sentence rings in my mind.. i cannot stop thinking of you.. i have suicidal intents from young.. cause i use to hate myself alot.. i may act a clown and try to make everyone laugh and to let all have something to laugh at.. but deep inside i am lonely too.. cause i am juz a mere human.. like what fu and i had discussed.. god is fair.. you may be a good looking person but deep inside your not desirable and vice versa.. i am really feeling lost..